Thursday, 30 January 2014

On Adulthood

I'm at a funny age really, in between being a child and an adult. And next year I'll be 18, when I'll officially be classed as an adult. But I'd be willing to bet good money that I won't feel like one by then. Adulthood is such a strange thing when you think about it. You're suddenly pulled out from being under your parents' protection and unleashed into the world and made to take care of yourself. That probably sounds a bit dramatic but that's pretty much what it comes down to as far as I can tell.

I go through phases of longing to be an adult and others in which I don't ever want to grow up. I use the classic excuse of "growing up looks hard". But really, I'm realising more and more that life is hard, so you may as well at least be fully in charge of your own life.

Right now I'm in a 'can't wait to be an adult and make all my own choices' phase. I had an argument with my Mum and Gran on Sunday. I'm sure you can imagine how that happens sometimes when you live in a house with three generations of women. We often argue about little things but this was a pretty serious one. For the majority of the time I can't stand arguments and this one was not an exception. What irritates me the most though (apart from being upset that we're not getting on), is that a lot of the time I don't feel like my point of view is valued simply because they're adults and I'm not.

Now I know that sounds terribly childish, but I don't mean it in a whiny way. I would just appreciate it if rather than hearing me, they would listen too. That's not to say that I don't love my family very much because I do and I don't know what I'd do without them. Anyway, we sorted it out so I don't want to be really pessimistic.

It just got me thinking again about being an adult and the freedom and the inevitable responsibility that comes with that. And right now I'm thinking I might actually like some of that. Some independence, in coming home (hopefully from a job I love) and cooking myself dinner. Having a proper choice in that. Maybe living with someone and spending my evening chatting with them or having some time to myself. Without the pressure of exams constantly looming over me.

I've painted a very idealistic and fairytale-like picture of being an adult, which I know in reality is not all fun and games. But I was daydreaming about this today so thought I'd write it all down. One thing's for sure, it will be lovely to look back on this in a few years when I'll be an adult myself. Funnily enough, I'm off to a careers evening at my school now to find out what it's all about!

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend xo

Monday, 27 January 2014

On My Favourite Quotes


Now anyone who knows me well know how much I adore quotes. So much so that my wall used to be completely covered in my favourite ones, to always remind me of what is important. I always have a list on my phone of quotes that I love which I often add to. A lot of the time I find them in books and write them down too. So I guess you can imagine how difficult I found it to narrow these down to just a few, but here's my best shot. 

1. "No one is useless in this world who lightens the burden of it for any one else." - Charles Dickens

2. "And love is always complicated. But still humans must try to love each other. We must get our hearts broken sometimes. This is a good sign, having a broken heart. It means we have tried for something." - Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat Pray Love

3. "There's nothing like the deep breaths after laughing that hard. Nothing in the world like a sore stomach for the right reasons." - Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower 

4. "The people you love can surprise you every day. Maybe who we are isn't so much about what we do, but rather what we're capable of when we least expect it." - Jodi Picoult, My Sister's Keeper

5. "Everything that's worth having comes with trials worth withstanding." - Kate Voegele

6. "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." - Eleanor Roosevelt 

7. "At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just not facing the truth. Some are evil men, at war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world. Six billion souls. And sometimes, all you need is one."

Thursday, 23 January 2014

On The Things That Remind Me Of Home



1. Beautiful flowers all around the house that my Gran brings home.

2. Sunday mornings chatting with my Mum about whatever I'm feeling like at that moment in time.

3. Bookshelves completely filled with books, both mine and my Mum's.

4. The sound of the kettle boiling for tea at what feels like every minute of every day.

5. The smell of egg and bacon cooking on a Sunday lunchtime.

6. A tub of Ben and Jerry's permanently in the freezer. 

7. The toys I definitely don't still have in my bed. 

Monday, 20 January 2014

On Tapas, Karaoke, Birthdays & Pizza

I'm aware that the title of this post sounds pretty weird. It's just a short summing up of my weekend. And what a wonderful weekend this was. It started on Friday when my school friends and I went out to celebrate our friend Lydia's birthday which had been on the Monday. We all went to have a manicure which was lovely - I always find manicures so relaxing which was definitely needed after the week that went on for FOREVER. (Exaggerating? Moi?!) 



We then went back to Lydia's, got ready and went out to an amazing Spanish restaurant in Teddington. The three course meal was amazing. I didn't take a proper photo of the food but we had nachos to start, then tapas with chips and then ice cream and sorbet for pudding. I want to go back again this week, and every week that follows! It was such a funny evening and I think a girls night is just what I needed. On a side note, I feel so lucky and happy to have made a great group of friends at my new school. It was never going to be easy joining a school in which the majority of people in my year have already known each other for five years but Lish, Lydia, Flo and Emma have really taken me and Josie in (we were both new). They're the loveliest girls and I feel so blessed to have so many wonderful friends. 



Anyway, enough of the soppiness. That was a great night. I had to spend Saturday daytime doing lots of homework and essays (boo!) but then in the evening I got to go to Mackinlay's for her birthday party (yay!). Her parents had hired a karaoke machine which I originally thought was a big mistake but it was absolutely hilarious and I loved it. For those of you who don't know me, I am completely and utterly tone deaf. It makes me sad really, if I could have one talent it would definitely be to be able to sing. 



But singing with other people meant it didn't matter, not that being tone deaf has ever stopped me singing in the first place! It was such a funny night and so nice to catch up with a lot of my friends from my old town as always. 



Finally on Sunday Harry and I came to my house. We watched Invictus and ordered pizzas from Pizza Express. We talked about anything and everything and had a really great day. I love spending most of my Sundays with him just relaxing and catching up. Besides, I was pretty tired from the night before and nearly fell asleep on him so somehow I don't think I was up to going out properly!

So that was my weekend. It went much too quickly, as it always does but I know the next one is only five days away which I suppose isn't too bad. I'm sorry for the quality of these photos, all iphone ones I'm afraid! What did you do this weekend? 

Thursday, 16 January 2014

On Being A Girl

In my experience (which is why although some of the things I write about may apply to boys as well I can only speak from a girl's point of view), being a girl can be both bloody great and bloody hard. I know that might be a strange thing to say, but sometimes I think about it and come to the conclusion that it might be so much easier to be a boy.

But of course I have never been a boy, and consequently I can't know that it would be easier. In fact, I have no doubt being a boy can also be both bloody great and bloody hard in different ways. Sometimes, in the nicest possible way, I just want my brain to shut up. I find myself thinking and thinking and thinking and it does. not. stop. It's infuriating. 

Today, in a free period Josie and I were sitting and talking about the future and university and the scary world of adulthood. A boy called Hugo came and sat with us, heard what we were talking about, and after a couple of minutes of listening suddenly came out with "the first thing I thought when I woke up this morning was how much I love pomegranates, so I went downstairs and ate some, they're amazing". We couldn't stop ourselves from bursting out into laughter at the contrast in our thought-tracks. I don't mean to imply that Hugo isn't capable of thinking about the future, just how funny I thought it was that he somehow managed to reduce it all to pomegranates. Honestly, the way he went on about them was as if he were a walking advert. 

To be honest, I don't really think this is about being a girl. I think it's more surrounded by the pressures of growing up. But onwards and upwards I guess. I know it's just been one of those weeks and I've gone into this one feeling much happier than I did last week. I suppose that's the first week back after a lovely three-week holiday for you. I also happen to think it's the January blues. I hope your Januarys are much happier than they're typically known for being!
 

Monday, 13 January 2014

On Rainy Days




1. Curl up under my duvet and snooze
2. Watch films
3. Bake something yummy
4. Write
5. Read a book with a warm cup of hot chocolate or tea
6. Phone one of my friends
7. Go and freeload take refuge at a loved one's house
8. Play Monopoly, Cluedo, card games

What do you like to do on rainy days?

Tuesday, 7 January 2014

On My Favourite Moments Of 2013



So here's list number 2. On New Year's Eve Emma asked me what my favourite moment of 2013 was and again I hadn't really thought about it just like I hadn't really thought about my goals for the new year. But thinking about it now, there really were so many wonderful moments in 2013 but I'm going to try and narrow them down to 10.

1. My anniversary with Harry
2. Going to Wales with my best friends
3. The moment of finishing and dinner with my form that followed when I completed my final GCSE exam
4. My 16th birthday with my favourite people at Hyde Park
5. Seeing Wicked 
6. One of my best friends coming from Romania and surprising me
7. Getting a text from my sister telling me my niece had been born in May
8. Going to see The Script
9. The day when I first felt settled and happy in my new house
10. Every moment when someone or myself made me laugh (laughter really is the best medicine)

Happy list-writing if you're joining in too! xo

Saturday, 4 January 2014

On My Goals For 2014


I recently read the lovely Ema's post in which she talks about her idea to pick a topic each week and write a list on it, so by the end of 2014 that will be 52 lists. I have to admit I'm guilty of writing a stupid amount of lists all the time. Writing them always makes me feel more organised and happy (I know, sad right?) so when I heard about this idea I jumped at the chance to join in.

The first topic is "list your goals for the year". This is a great topic because up until I was emailed it I hadn't really thought about what I want out of this year, which is quite unlike me because I'm usually driven by goals and find the beginning of a new year to be a very reflective time. So here's what I came up with:

1) Read 30 books
2) Read 3 classics 
3) Pass my AS Levels
4) Say yes more
5) Bake more
6) Blog more 
7) Worry less
8) Keep writing in my five-year diary everyday 

That's not a huge list, I know, but I just wanted to write down a few simple things I hope to achieve this year that I know I can do. 

Friday, 3 January 2014

On New Year's Eve





Happy New Year! Somehow we're already 3 days into 2014 and I have been recovering from going to sleep at 5 in the morning on New Year's Eve since then so haven't been around to blog sooner. I had such a wonderful New Year's Eve spent with some hilarious people, which you can see a glimpse of above. 

We spent the evening in our onesies, drinking, singing, dancing, talking and laughing. It was exactly what the doctor ordered for a great evening. I think the highlight of my night has to be either when we sang and danced to Abba's Dancing Queen or when Year 3000 by Busted came on, they were both amazing. 

It was so lovely to not have to make an effort and just relax and eat food rather than going out to a party, not that I wouldn't have enjoyed that, just that it was more relaxing to stay in. Since then I have been out of the house once, to meet some friends for lunch and a catch up and have been finishing holiday homework. I have to confess I am in no way looking forward to going back to school on Tuesday but I have been so grateful for this holiday.

Just a quick one today to wish you all a wonderful 2014 and I'll be back tomorrow with a list inspired by Ema's new idea.