Thursday, 14 March 2013

A Few Things

01: I apologise for neglecting this space for the past couple of weeks, life got in the way (as it always does from time to time) and I had a bit of a rough time about a week ago so didn't really feel like blogging. Needless to say I am very much back and raring to write.

02: The lovely ladies at Blogger's Bookshelf featured my book review on Paper Towns by John Green which you can see here, so thank you very much to them!

03: I went to a Justin Bieber concert last Thursday, I have absolutely no shame, I love him and he never fails to put on a good show. Having said that, luckily I did not go on the day that he arrived late! However, half way through the concert I received a text from my mum with some news that I was really hoping I wouldn't hear. As my mum works in London and we live in Surrey she has to commute to get to work. She has been doing this for years with no complaint as the state schools here are much better and we could never afford to send me to a private school. But recently she's been getting a lot more run down and tired as a result of the commute, and she doesn't think she can do it anymore. So she's decided that she feels we have to move to London and as it is my last year of GCSE's she would rather move me in the Summer instead of making a difficult transition half way through my a levels.

The problem is that this has slowly been eating away at me for the past few months, I love my life here. Every aspect of it. I want to stay at my school for sixth form with the people I love. But I feel so selfish for that. My mum has sacrificed so much for me over the years since she and my dad divorced and this is something she wants to do for her. I can't deny her that and feel okay with myself. So I agreed to interview at a few grammar schools in London and we applied for bursaries. I only got into one of these, and the news I got at the concert was that I had got a full bursary. I know, it sounds crazy, but I was upset with this achievement. Some kids would kill for it, but not me, I was hoping for the easy way out, so that we wouldn't have to fight and so that even if we moved I would be able to stay at my current school somehow. Childish, I know. But, of course, we don't often get the 'easy way out' in life and so I've been wrestling with this decision and how to handle it. I hate change, I suppose it's in human nature to feel that way. I think that we, as a race, find it incredibly difficult to face change, we like our habits and familiarity and so the thought of this being broken can terrify us even when it is for the better. So I talked to one of my teachers to get a different perspective.

I am incredibly lucky with my head of year - she has always been there for me should I need anything - and she told me that at the end of the day, no matter what I decide, I just have to be true to myself. And so, I talked it out with my mum, have agreed to spend a trial day at this school to get a feel for the place and I'm praying that after that she will allow me to make a decision for myself. I now realise how great this opportunity is, and that although it has been tearing me apart a little for the past few months I am incredibly lucky to be given it. I don't want to go into it too much, I just wanted to briefly explain why I've been absent. But I am feeling better about it now.

04: I went to my boyfriend's school last Friday to see him in Daisy Pulls It Off, it was absolutely hilarious, the acting was impeccable and I loved being able to see him doing something he seems to love so much. Although in the interval he somehow managed to get knocked in the head with a blackboard and so had to miss some of the second half, resulting in me worrying he might be a little bit dead: hello occupation 24/7 worrier, thanks mum for passing that down to me! He was fine though and I thoroughly enjoyed the whole evening.

06: On the Saturday I went shopping with Lucy in London, had lunch in Flat Planet and bought a new bralet and top. In the evening I went to the Daisy after party and got a little bit drunk, but had a very good time.

07: Here are a few pictures from the past couple of weeks, I'm off to do homework like the good student I am catch up on Masterchef.

Beautiful drunk photo

Evidence of my love for snapchat in the form of me and Ro sending this to a friend that was ill.

On the way to Justin Bieber

Flat Planet food, can't explain how good this was.

Excuse my stomach, but this is my new bralet.

My new top.

I found this so interesting so thought I'd share.





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